DEATH BY CHILDREN

I am exhausted . . . . beyond exhausted.  I am already dead and just haven't had time to lay down. How 2 little children can wear down one totally out of shape grand ma in a matter of days is unbelievable to me but I am walking dead proof of it.

Some time ago my daughter called to ask if H and I would watch her children for 5 days.  Of course I said, "YES YES YES" .  I am now into day 3 of the watching and am ready to drown myself in a bowl of Spagetti-O's. I ADORE these kids.  I would give my life for these children but they are killing me slowly and quite painfully.  They have proved to me just how out of shape I am and just how much I need to get my ass in gear and loose a ton of weight if I ever plan on seeing them grow up.

Keri and Steve are on the other side of the country in the state of Washington at a concert. God love them! They owe me BIG BIG BIG for this one.  Kaelin (5) and Finn (2) are here with H and I for the 5 days that mom and dad are away. Kyle and his family were here for the early part of the week so we had the 4 cousins all here playing and adding to grand ma's summer camp. All the kids are fantastic but put 4 kids ages 13-2 in a house with 6 adults and there is bedlam. Everyone has their own way of doing things and grand ma gets to stand by watching her always so organized house fall apart around her.  I thought I was going to go over the edge when my fridge was getting stacked with weird grains and seeds that Keri and Steve eat. Then there is the allergy free natural stuff that Kaelin can eat and the lactose free yogurt that Finn can eat while everything has to say ORGANIC on it before it can even come in to the house.  And my Sponsor from OA is worried that I won't stay on program! There is nothing in this house that a normal human would eat. Did I mention I am exhausted?
I have not sat down to a "normal" meal in over a week. I have not had time to eat even if there were anything around that I would want to eat. And I am too tired to chew!

This has been a fantastic time for bonding with my little people but I think I like it better when I can get more than 6 hours sleep a night.  Sleep is key to my existence. I am working on my very last nerve and have come very close to falling on the floor in a fetal position and whimpering. I have been brought to my knees by a 2 year old who looked at me and said,"I love you grand ma" in his little squeaky voice. I have played endless games of hide and seek, read every book in the house and played cars and Strawberry Shortcake for hours.  When I hear that little voice in the morning calling,"Ma ma? Da Da?, K K ? (Finn's name for his sister), Grand ma ?, Pa pa?,  anybody?" It melts my heart but it doesn't help the pain in my knees and back.

Did I tell you I was exhausted?