REPLACING BODY PARTS

Isn't it amazing how modern science can replace 90% of our body.  Loose a limb,  we'll build you a new one.  Got a joint that's not working, get a new knee, shoulder, hip.  Heart giving you trouble, we can replace bits and pieces of it or the whole thing, what ever you need. Kidney ? No problem ! Stomach too big, we'll take some out, boobs too small, we can put some in. Hooray for the world of medicine and science.

So why can't they fix my brain ???????

I have tried it all. With the exception of shock therapy or a lobotomy. Although I do wonder if perhaps they might help?  NO!  Not even if that's the last resort.

I'm talking here about the way our brains work in regard to FOOD.  I'll put this right out there folks . . .
Tonight I ATE an entire pint of ice cream!
There, I said it and I'm glad. I cannot believe I did this and yet I am not at all surprised, shocked or amazed. I am nauseous, disgusted and really pissed at myself but I am also working on this weird IN  YOUR FACE attitude. Almost like my brain is splitting in two and I am telling "right" brain to "F" off and leave me alone while that side is telling "Left" brain "Ha Ha Ha, you have no control over me!"
(See, after all these years we now have the proof that I am schizophrenic.)

But here's the best part, I started a Weight Loss Program this week thanks to my orthopedic doctors recommendation. I am going to need a knee replacement some time in the near future. To make the recovery from this surgery easier I NEED to loose weight. All this makes complete sense. I am an educated woman of some many many years who has subjected my brain to all sorts of weight management approaches. Hypnosis, therapy, weight loss programs, groups, videos, audio tapes etc, etc, etc.  I KNOW THE DRILL ! I have spent a lifetime battling my excess weight. Nothing has had a lasting affect.
 I have spent the past 4 days keeping a food journal, which included the pretzels and one piece of candy I ate along with the salmon, grilled vegetables and make believe mashed potatoes made from cauliflower. But tonight I totally lost my mind and scarfed up one very delicious FULL PINT of Ben and Jerry's ice cream. All the while asking myself "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" but never slowing down for a moment.  I even added whipped cream !

HOW INSANE IS THAT ?   HOW CRAZY AM I ?  WHAT THE HELL AM I TO DO WITH MYSELF ?

I seriously do not know what to do.  I will go to my weight loss meeting, probably with this blog in hand and just sit there dumb founded hoping someone will have an answer for me.

Until then I need to go shopping because I am out of ice cream.